For the past five years I have been trying to fill an void that is going to take over my emotions for the rest of my life. I don’t have a father figure anymore, nor that security and that is what I am constantly looking for. I let people in, and they mistake my kindness for weakness, and take complete and utter advantage of me. It’s something that I have become used to. All i want in life is to make people happy. I have learned how precious time is when my dad was diagnosed with cancer, and unfortunately passed away. Even though I know my happiness is important, I take pride in making other people happy, it makes me just as happy. And maybe that is where I am going wrong, I try too hard with the wrong people, give people everything I have without making sure they wanted it. I try to give myself a new mindset, but I know that is just not who I am.
it scares me that you never know what someone is thinking or feeling towards you and everything that they say could be one massive lie
Sometimes we hold hands when we fuck
because we can be as rough as we want
with each other’s bodies
but me holding your hand is my way of reminding you
that I’m nothing but gentle with your heart.
nicki in the background
oHMYGOD taylor’s like “i feel you bro you call them out on their shit” and nicki’s like “gurl he means you”
does anyone else see the guy way back there. that guy that suddenly appears and points at taylor
it gets funnier each time it appears on my dash
PLUS THE FACT THAT THE CAMERA WENT TO TAYLOR OTHER THAN ANY OTHER CELEBRITY